A sinking feeling takes over me everyday, with each day that passes by I inch closer to end of a era a phase in my life when I could just be myself, do what I want to and also realized my own potentials, my weaknesses and strength. Like I said a long time ago that MBA is like a costly SWOT analysis but it eventually has turned out to be a lot of other things so much so that I don't want it to end. And the only thing certain right now is that it will end. The life I've been living the past one year has had everything from killing stress to pure unadulterated fun. And I have gotten use to it so much that I don't know how its going to be after this, how will life be. The friendships made here are priceless and I know distance and time fades all the warmth in friendships, but I wish I could just hold on to what I have right now and not let it change at all.
The two months spent back home made me realize what I don't want for the rest of my life and what will I be missing if I go back. I wish I could avoid what awaits me. I am happy now but its short lived the reality is looming too close now, the dream is coming to an end and its almost time to wake up and fight to survive, fight to just be and fight to not crumble under the suffocating systems in place. Life ahead has just struggle written all over it and I am not up to it at all.
Wish I could avoid whats all to come my way, wish I could escape all the obligations I have. I am not escapist but its just the part of me which wants life my own way and on my own terms has become stronger over the year and now its difficult to silent it. That part me no more wants to compromise with life, it wants it all and it wants it on its own terms.
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