Immunity from duty

A sinking feeling takes over me everyday, with each day that passes by I inch closer to end of a era a phase in my life when I could just be myself, do what I want to and also realized my own potentials, my weaknesses and strength. Like I said a long time ago that MBA is like a costly SWOT analysis but it eventually has turned out to be a lot of other things so much so that I don't want it to end. And the only thing certain right now is that it will end. The life I've been living the past one year has had everything from killing stress to pure unadulterated fun. And I have gotten use to it so much that I don't know how its going to be after this, how will life be. The friendships made here are priceless and I know distance and time fades all the warmth in friendships, but I wish I could just hold on to what I have right now and not let it change at all.

The two months spent back home made me realize what I don't want for the rest of my life and what will I be missing if I go back. I wish I could avoid what awaits me. I am happy now but its short lived the reality is looming too close now, the dream is coming to an end and its almost time to wake up and fight to survive, fight to just be and fight to not crumble under the suffocating systems in place. Life ahead has just struggle written all over it and I am not up to it at all.

Wish I could avoid whats all to come my way, wish I could escape all the obligations I have. I am not escapist but its just the part of me which wants life my own way and on my own terms has become stronger over the year and now its difficult to silent it. That part me no more wants to compromise with life, it wants it all and it wants it on its own terms.

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I can't put a title to it!

Blank is the feeling and not so blunt are the words... Its like a gypsy with no mission and no where to reach, he only arrives and he only travels not chasing anything. No dreams to follow but is still a dreamer, no highs to reach but is still a bird that flies high. This he chose by choice but is felicity in sight? Its a question not only the gypsy but we all ought to ask. Its dubious, the answer; and makes him diffident on rationality of existence... Another gloam arrives and again the rage of the seeker is choked a little more...

Code...Decode

In the state of existence we go through umpteen number of emotions everyday, some decipherable and some not. And it all depends how much do you keep things simple and how much clarity is there in thoughts and thought process. If you have too many feelings and thoughts that you can't seem to decode and its all jumbled up and setting it all straight is like a impossible task then that's "Impasse". Being at a dead is when you got to reorient yourself because there is no other way out. But what happens when the direction you take after reorientation puts you on another dead end path?... Are you lost again?

Silly Billy

Life has it twist and turns, we are always are on a winding road, no destination just the journey and then the end one day. But on the way we gather some memories good and bad, people good and bad, experiences good and bad. But one day when we look back we either say my life has been good or bad. And that conclusion is not dependent on the count of good memories, people or experiences exceeding the bad ones but depends entirely on which one we choose to remember and cherish. And which one we choose to remember depends on our attitude and outlook to life in general. Positivity grows by believing that everything is going to be alright no matter what. The bad times won't last forever and the good ones will come soon but if we continue to think in the same direction and also add that eventually the good times would last too and the bad ones would be back again; well then, you have grown too wise for your own good. And that means you need some foolishness and sillin...

Life in passing

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