Life in passing

Missing inspiration to perform better in whatever we do is a problem a lot of people I know are facing and not to mention I am suffering from same deficiency. So whats the way out? What? You create a reason out of thin air or just make yourself believe you'll get some driver sooner or later and so you continue existing, feeling aimless and lost and low. There is stuff written is by the way complete bullshit, about have reasons driving you from within WTF. But my problem is I don't have any internal or eternal reasons to be all enthusiastic about and believe its all good and everything is as it is supposed to be. Well, whats the proof may be its not all good it could be in fact pathetic, how do I know? I feel like person who is lost and needs a faith system to hold on it otherwise I'll be just an aimless wanderer... "Always moving but getting nowhere..."

Life offers no sympathies or condolences for the sick, the poor, the weak or the slow ones. The rule is "You lag you lose". So keep running my friend because the race is not over; keep fighting because the fight is not over yet... so keep going in the hopes of it to be over one day but be sure you can't put a date on it on the calender because you never know what the future holds for you. Its a web and you keep searching for a way out a way which just might not be there...

When you don't feel too well the longing to return to home makes you feel even worse. The touch of the hands of your mother on your forehead has such a healing effect that no matter how ill your are it makes you feel better. Her mere presence around you does more to help then the pills you pop. I guess I am in dire need of that presence today, but unfortunately she is not here and this is not home. Miss you mom...

As an observer and not being an active player in the game you get to see a lot what most people wouldn't see. Today was Valentines day and its like any other day for me but may be not for quite a few. Its a huge deal for new couples which is understandable to an extend and then its probably the worst day for singles in search of some one to be with. A day like this gets them face to face to the ugly truth. Its like that reality looms on their head that they are alone and then that thought grows on them making them feel worse and makes them believe they are always going to be lonely and so they torment themselves further and Valentines day turns into a worsen-tine day. But my point is why should a day made out of media hype to sell flowers, cards and gifts make people(otherwise very normal people) turn abnormally depressive and saddened. Stupid cupid brings in more stupidity amongst those hit by it and those spared by it. Come on grow up is what I got tell those saddened souls. ...

Sitting with a blank head in an alley going no where and no where to go. The void has made the brain numb. Where do I go from here? I guess you got to wait and see to know coz I don't know. Has it happened before? Oh yes many times but every time it happens I still get somewhere so will I this time too? For that you got to wait and see but you will go somewhere coz you can't stay here and so you will move. And move you will again may be little knowing where you are going and where do you have to reach but you will move is the voice inside telling me. Moving is inevitable. In an estranged world you need to know why are you here since there is no need to be here if you don't know; so find a purpose or cease to exist. The rat race is not for you the voice says again...but what race am I in I don't know and racing for what I don't know, I thought I wasn't moving. But my be I am just wandering or may be drifting... Thoughts are frosted and numb!