Stuck in the sea of hopelessness and the worst part is I don't know how to swim. Need to be saved but I also know no one can save me and I really have no clue how to help myself, I am drowning and the sun is setting and the shadows are being longer. The day is nearing an end but the night is just beginning and it will only become darker, so I am not just in the sea of hopelessness but in a dark sea of hopelessness and so ill equipped to make it through the night. But I have no choice but to try to survive and I think this trying and failing is going to leave serious dents that of course if I survive. In all this whats the most unwieldy part is that giving up is not an option, give up and do what, its like there is no other option. And this feeling of being trapped and failure is making life so hard and impossible to cope. Everyday is a depressive start to more depression and desperation, I feel cold and lost and occupied with sadness and frustration. The biggest lose is the lose ...
A sneak peek at the inner workings of my mind :-P