Life in passing

Fluctuations, mood swings, irritations, anxiety, stress... you name it we got it all. Sounds like a promo for a grocery store. But life has turned out to be such that these feelings have become a regular part of our day. Not a day goes by without the interference of at least one of these feelings disrupting our peace of mind(if there is such a thing still left). So how do we escape falling in the trap that life sets everyday to get us, how do I avoid these negative feelings? People say try meditation... huh. I don't want these bad feeling to hang around me, I don't want to learn to live with them. I want to eradicate them... got any answers???? Nothing to worry about, nothing bothering us, it all good... how would that be? It's like the unexplored dominion. And we are just living with the ghost of a good mood.

According to Malcolm Gladwell(author of best sellers like a The Tipping point, Blink, Outliers) if you have to make something a habit you need to practice it for 10,000 hours. With my years of existence(more than 227760 hours), I guess I have more than fulfilled the criteria set by the 10000 hour rule. So not only have I perfected the art of delaying work till the last minute I have kind of become a professional. Operating in snooze mode is a way of life. Does some good come out of it? Surprisingly yes, it allows you to have time for being lazy and having fun. Now, I know this is a debatable statement but I will stand by my word and will prove that what I am saying is correct(a skill acquired by less than 10,000 hours practice at B-school). Have you noticed whenever you have a lot of work to do and you switch on the television any damn freaking movie seems interesting, you find the radio playing all your favorite songs, you start finding other mundane daily activities interesting? In...

Have we become a race which finds solace in sadness? Well, not the whole race yet but a quite a number have joined this cult and some don't even know yet that they have a life time membership to the Club of the Gloom-doom. But what makes us this way, it ain't natural to find sadness more comforting then happiness? In my 'uninformed' opinion I think we are turning towards opposite side since we are too engrossed in running after something or the other, we want something new everyday and then we get to the full blown operation of hoarding. Sometime we are successful at it and many times we are not. In this race to accumulate more and more we end up losing a lot, and then after a while losing becomes a part of the activity of winning over something new; but somewhere deep down the things/people that we end up losing (that may be more precious that current object of our of desire) hurts us more than the happiness we get out of conquering the new stuff. So the net is pain an...

I have this habit of rationalizing and breaking down all dreams and wishes in to small fragments of logical entities; and then most of it sounds like a crazy frenzy with no sense in them. But I realized today that I am being so unfair to myself and my dreams in life. Sometimes you cannot explain why you wish for a thing but some where somehow it makes sense but the logic driven head can't see it. The heart dreams and the head shoot them all down with reason. I believe when you desire for something there a reason which only your heart knows but you can't put a finger on it and can't explain it. But the systematic thinking brain doesn't let it grow. Probably that's the reason I haven't dreamt in a while haven't stargazed haven't let my dreams go big. But no more I have a secret place in my heart where mind wont rule, and my dreams will rule and grow. And so the dreamer is back. “There are some people who live in a dream world, and there are some who fa...

I am standing in a meadow and a cool breeze is blowing, there is a still lake near by, at a distance I can see a mountain. These is stillness is in the surrounding and it makes me feel calm and at peace. I stretch my arms and feel the breeze flowing through my hair and around my arms. I see far and there is no soul in sight but the beauty of the place is so enticing that you don't need anyone around. I don't feel alone at all I feel the place is mine and I belong here The only problem is that I don't know where this place is...

When the soul should dive in the sea of joy but it only adorns a veil of sadness... When the soul should attain fulfillment but it only discovers depths of emptiness... When the mind can relax but it only flexes further... When the mind can widen horizons but it only constricts... When life has to simplify but it only complicates... When living has to get easy but it only gets tougher... When the final chapter in living is impending but the novel of life has a disappointing decline...

People have embarrassing moments in their lives and I use to wonder how come they could remember it even after years have gone by. Today I know how it feels and how the moment gets engraved in memory for good and it can keep coming back to make you go pink with shame. The day could be much better without the last incident, in fact could be a perfect first day at school but that wasn't to be. Anyways now I think its going to haunt me for a while and people can make that while last for quite a while, but I really hope not. I am feeling shit embarrassed and disgusted with myself and I just want to erase this part of my memory; since that's not possible I can also wish for another impossible that I can go back in time and change(literally). And maybe two impossibles make one possible. Wow in a deplorable situation I am trying to sound positive gosh that's not me, I think I should consult a doctor.

First blog of the year and all I am feeling is inertia, because now I that felt settle and 'at home' at home I am supposed go to the airport in another 15 minutes. Well, that's life when you are comfortable in a place its time to move. But before I blame life its a possibility that I take a little too long to get settled in a changed place. I guess that's true and I guess the inertia plays a strong factor in my case keeping in mind the weight. Okay got to go now the siren is ringing which means my dad is getting impatient to start for the airport at 8:45 pm for a 1 am flight :(. Anyways Bon Voyage to myself and good bye Delhi and hello Manila.