Life in passing

Got to have something within to drive you through the day and give each day a purpose than merely being and clinging on false hopes and expectations. A mission so big in life that you can see past all the emotional haziness without a twitch in your heart. They say a purpose that makes you cold and unemotional is not worth having, why not? Why not? the least it does it protects you from being hurt and battered, its like a cover and at the end you will be somewhere you were striving to reach. Being emotionally dependent on people can be the worst thing you can do for yourself. A lot of things in life are temporary, the things you never want to be temporary are temporary. Nothing stays forever and we have to deal with. Life changes and will change you can sit and see it changing or can take control and steer in the direction you would want it to go. Its any day better than carrying the regrets of just accepting what came to you and never having to try harder for a better life. We make ...

A sinking feeling takes over me everyday, with each day that passes by I inch closer to end of a era a phase in my life when I could just be myself, do what I want to and also realized my own potentials, my weaknesses and strength. Like I said a long time ago that MBA is like a costly SWOT analysis but it eventually has turned out to be a lot of other things so much so that I don't want it to end. And the only thing certain right now is that it will end. The life I've been living the past one year has had everything from killing stress to pure unadulterated fun. And I have gotten use to it so much that I don't know how its going to be after this, how will life be. The friendships made here are priceless and I know distance and time fades all the warmth in friendships, but I wish I could just hold on to what I have right now and not let it change at all. The two months spent back home made me realize what I don't want for the rest of my life and what will I be missing i...

There should be a feeling of warmth that ties a family but that happens in the movies or in other peoples families. For me its a little different. I don't miss home and no one at home misses me. But I am a responsibility which has to be disposed, a person my father has to put up with of course an unpleasant affair for both of us. He does not like me and he is not my hero either. So in a house like that I don't feel home so that puts me in a tricky situation I wish I could just disappear in thin air forever. If home doesn't feel home and you have no where else to go what do I do? I never wanted to be back here and add more to my own agony and their responsibility because that's what I am for them. I curse my very existence sometimes and these are the times when I hate myself and feel helpless and I wish I could run away....well that's not hard to do...I guess I am on my way to doing that.