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demolition underway

Stuck in the sea of hopelessness and the worst part is I don't know how to swim. Need to be saved but I also know no one can save me and I really have no clue how to help myself, I am drowning and the sun is setting and the shadows are being longer. The day is nearing an end but the night is just beginning and it will only become darker, so I am not just in the sea of hopelessness but in a dark sea of hopelessness and so ill equipped to make it through the night. But I have no choice but to try to survive and I think this trying and failing is going to leave serious dents that of course if I survive.

In all this whats the most unwieldy part is that giving up is not an option, give up and do what, its like there is no other option. And this feeling of being trapped and failure is making life so hard and impossible to cope. Everyday is a depressive start to more depression and desperation, I feel cold and lost and occupied with sadness and frustration.

The biggest lose is the lose of hope, hope of a better day, hope of seeing through the dark tunnel but when the tunnel is blocked from both sides what do get but a trap of despair. I have tried to be positive and optimistic each day and also tried to pretend to be hopeful but now I think I am giving up. I am gearing up for the fall now but it won't be a big fall since I have been falling each day so I have covered some distance but still when I fall the pieces would be uncollectible...

"...hope can be paralyzing"

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  1. SushantMarch 23, 2011 at 8:46 PM

    Not sure you will agree but life always look hopeless when you hope on wrong things. Building is always shaking if its base is fragile. If you really dont know where you are going then any road will lead you there??

    Now answer three simple and vital questions to yourself. 1. Who you are?(What is your origin and what is your identity) Why you are?(Purpose or reason being here) and Where are you Heading?( what is your destiny, how do you define the end of your journey what is your final destination).

    I Hope this activity will surely boost you up...

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