Life in passing

I don't know if its just me or it happens with everyone else also, I feel like everyday life takes a psychometric tests. Everyday there are so many dilemmas to deal with and I have had so many of those in life that by now I should have been an expert at that but unfortunately I don't seem to have learned much. Its like if one problem gets resolved another one pops up and I need to do decide what to do right then else things will get worse. And me being me I procrastinate on taking that decision till I can. And of course it does not help but again even if I decide early I'll always keep thinking is it the right decision or not. So to save myself the agony I just don't decide anything till I can afford to. Gosh, sometimes I hate myself for it, I can't even decide for myself what will decide for others, if I get a job where I would have decision making responsibilities. But again there is a difference in making decisions for yourself and for work. I think all my logic ...

Sometimes you walk to keep your sanity while on those walks you sing to yourself, all the little things are gonna be all right, not knowing when will things be all right. When you are sitting unemployed in a foreign country with no loved ones around and no support from anyone maintaining your sanity also becomes a daily chore at such a time. And so you walk and walk till your mind comes to rest and for some precious moments you cease to think anything and just go blank for a while or just wonder how the hell do I get back. On the hope that tomorrow will probably be a better day you push on, but again you step out to saunter again because because it eventually didn't turn out to be any better day than yesterday. I don't when to give up and pack my bags and leave, but I don't want to give to soon. I don't want to have regret of '2 minutes too soon...' So when I can't think anymore there I go again on the on the walk again just to return the next day too. S...

All of us move on, some can do it soon and some take their own sweet time. For some people packing up their bag and physically moving to another place is moving on emotionally too. But not everyone can pack their emotions and attachments with their bags and move on for good. Some slow beings like me linger on, still want to hold on to how things were yesterday, we are hesitant movers and do a lousy job when it comes to detaching. And people like this go through pain and have no clue how to cope up and face up to the new reality. For us many days are spend reminiscing over the happy times in the past and in fact on hindsight a lot of frustating moments in the past also don't feel so bad. But its a pathetic state to be in, the longer you take the more the agony. Some people can move on so very fast that it sometimes makes you wonder two things, are you very weak? and for these these people who have so easily moved on, did you even ever matter to them? At that time when you feel eve...

Its not just the beauty of the place but the beauty of the people which entices you, makes you wanna stay just a little bit longer and you never get enough of the place. Such are the magical islands of the Philippines, every day spent there has been an experience. Little over an year spent in this country has been the most wonderful year. My sixteen month saga at and the kinship with Philippines goes like this: Even before we reached Manila the daily phone calls to decide which airlines to travel with, use to be quite bugging. And now that I know Saumya just generally talks a lot on all occasions even then I still can't imagine how he went on talking about flight tickets for one and half hours on the phone while my mom kept giving me looks and I kept telling Saumya I have to go somewhere and he still kept talking. But before we reached the stage of discussing flight tickets most of us had a hard time getting Visa with so many things to be done, it was a big hurdle that troubled A...