Life in passing

Living in the shadows of doubt, thinking every other second have I got my priorities wrong, am I acting foolishly by wanting too much in life. I want my friends around, I want my parents to be happy and I want me to be happy here. Sometimes I wonder have I never grown up, I am still in the stage where you give so much of importance to friends, because it sounds like a tale a teenager will tell. Won't the responsibilities of a regular lifestyle become too big in times to come. And I won't be the only one who will go through this all the friends that i want to be close to will also go through the same situation. They will get busy and I will get busy too. But I understand that, all I want is that over some long weekend I will get to meet them, at least once in a year. So even though it sounds foolish but I still treasure my friends. So if go back home I know I won't be able to meet them again. I don't remember feeling like this after engineering got over and it was a 4 y...

So Manila chapter will officially close tomorrow needless to say I don't want it to end but all good things come to an end. But again, in last couple of weeks something has changed, I can't really explain but I get the feeling that I have over stayed already. The associations and attachment people had are already beginning to began to blur a little. Everyone is looking at what's coming next, how life is going to change, which is natural but somehow I am not really there because I know for its gonna be an all uphill. What has to happen has to happen so move on no matter where you are headed, will find a way somehow someday. Not all days are alike and so this shall pass...

Last year at pretty much the same time I wrote about September being a month that gets your evaluative side more active "September's here" and here I am, again a year has passed by and I did not even realize. And today I don't want to evaluate my efforts I want returns now, I am aiming for greener pastures and some clarity now. Need things to get sorted out in life, had enough of complications now its time for rewards. But sadly nothings coming and I don't for long will the dry spell last... Still stranded and waiting...