disarray

I don't know if its just me or it happens with everyone else also, I feel like everyday life takes a psychometric tests. Everyday there are so many dilemmas to deal with and I have had so many of those in life that by now I should have been an expert at that but unfortunately I don't seem to have learned much. Its like if one problem gets resolved another one pops up and I need to do decide what to do right then else things will get worse. And me being me I procrastinate on taking that decision till I can. And of course it does not help but again even if I decide early I'll always keep thinking is it the right decision or not. So to save myself the agony I just don't decide anything till I can afford to.

Gosh, sometimes I hate myself for it, I can't even decide for myself what will decide for others, if I get a job where I would have decision making responsibilities. But again there is a difference in making decisions for yourself and for work. I think all my logic comes to play if I am not so connected with the situation. Well, anyways I am just getting tired of living in dilemmas each day and not knowing how things are going to turn out tomorrow. In short I am sick of the uncertainty that I live under each day.... I want some clarity and direction in life....well, a great job in Singapore would do wonders to my quest of some sense in life for now.