New Realisations and Eye openers!

Things could have been worse! I tell myself even though they are quite bad already, that's the magic of clinging on to a ray of hope. But like everyday of my MBA where I feel completely out of tune in class not knowing what the prof is talking about and still trying to make some sense and connecting it with the very little I know, even today was such a day. Although it was a Saturday a day when normal people chill out, I am stressed. Why? because I know suck at accounting and finance subjects and I realised I suck at Quantitative analysis too which supposedly engineers are supposed to be good at (please pay head its just a supposition). So its pretty clear the exam was a bouncer and its all fucked up in my head, and to make things worse I have an Accounting exam on Monday, many cases to be done and a corporate strategy to be framed over the weekend when I have no strategy of my own to survive the MBA.

I think by the end of this (if I survive) I would be knowing all the things I can't do, cause the list is growing each day. But again a glimmer of hope, there is also a small list right now which tells what all I can do well. Even though its a small list but I just glad there is such a list :-). I use to think I'll make a big fool of myself if I ever went on a stage and even uttered a word, but some of my friends have made me realised that I am not all that bad. So let me make a special note of thanks to those people cause that's the only silver lining I have for the today.

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I can't put a title to it!

Blank is the feeling and not so blunt are the words... Its like a gypsy with no mission and no where to reach, he only arrives and he only travels not chasing anything. No dreams to follow but is still a dreamer, no highs to reach but is still a bird that flies high. This he chose by choice but is felicity in sight? Its a question not only the gypsy but we all ought to ask. Its dubious, the answer; and makes him diffident on rationality of existence... Another gloam arrives and again the rage of the seeker is choked a little more...

Code...Decode

In the state of existence we go through umpteen number of emotions everyday, some decipherable and some not. And it all depends how much do you keep things simple and how much clarity is there in thoughts and thought process. If you have too many feelings and thoughts that you can't seem to decode and its all jumbled up and setting it all straight is like a impossible task then that's "Impasse". Being at a dead is when you got to reorient yourself because there is no other way out. But what happens when the direction you take after reorientation puts you on another dead end path?... Are you lost again?

Silly Billy

Life has it twist and turns, we are always are on a winding road, no destination just the journey and then the end one day. But on the way we gather some memories good and bad, people good and bad, experiences good and bad. But one day when we look back we either say my life has been good or bad. And that conclusion is not dependent on the count of good memories, people or experiences exceeding the bad ones but depends entirely on which one we choose to remember and cherish. And which one we choose to remember depends on our attitude and outlook to life in general. Positivity grows by believing that everything is going to be alright no matter what. The bad times won't last forever and the good ones will come soon but if we continue to think in the same direction and also add that eventually the good times would last too and the bad ones would be back again; well then, you have grown too wise for your own good. And that means you need some foolishness and sillin...

Life in passing

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