Is happiness an illusion?

Life can be weird sometimes and so can people. Both just don't stop to surprise you and on second thoughts sometimes you are surprised with your own reactions. Imagine laughing your heart out when you are under immense stress and tensions(Hysteria Struck :D). Just when you think you are nearing the tipping point and you can't go on the way you are going any more you find some more courage and strength from inside you and start off all over again. Probably that is what I am doing, now more often then ever before. Going through everyday seems such a big effort that I have to cox myself each day, but I do, everyday; and successfully till now... but I am not so sure for how long.

And I am asked what is the problem, why I am feeling like this and why am I so miserable when everything is manageable I get my share of fun too its just not all work. So what wrong? I don't know but I am not happy...

But why am not happy, when I am doing what I always wanted to do? But that does it mean if I get to do what I wanted to I am supposed to be happy? What if I wanted something else what if... But the fact is I really don't know. I need to know my mind much better and do some soul searching and reflect a little more on all the choices I've made in my life. Because at the end of the day I want to have a feeling of happiness that stays with and is not dependent on external factors.

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I can't put a title to it!

Blank is the feeling and not so blunt are the words... Its like a gypsy with no mission and no where to reach, he only arrives and he only travels not chasing anything. No dreams to follow but is still a dreamer, no highs to reach but is still a bird that flies high. This he chose by choice but is felicity in sight? Its a question not only the gypsy but we all ought to ask. Its dubious, the answer; and makes him diffident on rationality of existence... Another gloam arrives and again the rage of the seeker is choked a little more...

Code...Decode

In the state of existence we go through umpteen number of emotions everyday, some decipherable and some not. And it all depends how much do you keep things simple and how much clarity is there in thoughts and thought process. If you have too many feelings and thoughts that you can't seem to decode and its all jumbled up and setting it all straight is like a impossible task then that's "Impasse". Being at a dead is when you got to reorient yourself because there is no other way out. But what happens when the direction you take after reorientation puts you on another dead end path?... Are you lost again?

Silly Billy

Life has it twist and turns, we are always are on a winding road, no destination just the journey and then the end one day. But on the way we gather some memories good and bad, people good and bad, experiences good and bad. But one day when we look back we either say my life has been good or bad. And that conclusion is not dependent on the count of good memories, people or experiences exceeding the bad ones but depends entirely on which one we choose to remember and cherish. And which one we choose to remember depends on our attitude and outlook to life in general. Positivity grows by believing that everything is going to be alright no matter what. The bad times won't last forever and the good ones will come soon but if we continue to think in the same direction and also add that eventually the good times would last too and the bad ones would be back again; well then, you have grown too wise for your own good. And that means you need some foolishness and sillin...

Life in passing

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