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Another turning point

A friend of mine did a tarot card reading for me sometime back and told me that I have everything I need around me but there is still a void... And then I start to ponder if that’s true and if it is, what am I missing... And the same string of thoughts lead me in another direction that my life is undergoing certain major changes and the kind of changes I’ve been striving for quite a long time and now finally when it’s happening why am I not elated? Why I am not capable of feeling the satisfaction of achieving my goal? Why I am not keenly looking forward going to a completely new place and doing what I was wanting to do for a long time?

Life feels dull when you just live, not feeling extreme happiness and sadness (sadness still sticks to me but not the happy moments). I’ve been made to grow up on the concept that nor should you get too excited in happy times and neither get too depressed in sad times. Now as my friend puts it, conceptually it’s something that works well but along the way you end up killing the little moments of happiness and sadness that you got to grab to keep human and be connected with yourself. Well maybe she is right but this habit is become like a build in module so changing it will need some very hard work.

Life is weird and I am making it weirder for myself. But I will get a hang of things; life’s not that bad as the tarot also tells me I got everything I need :-).

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  1. RupakApril 22, 2009 at 5:57 PM

    are yaar....seriously, ithni philosophy....awesome writing....but tarot varot is b***crap.

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  2. SupMay 23, 2009 at 11:56 PM

    aahhh...who told u all that crap...n moreover u listened to that..let that somewhere seep into u....next time..shoo away all those with tarot cards or parrots or whatever..

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